but now it’s a lot of words and i’m not re-reading it! if i do my ocd will keep me here for hours and i have housework to do and dinner to make so)
just to make my point, bc i never did acknowledge my backing away from tua and the fandom. this post mentions only a few things bc i didn’t even intend to make this post or get into any of this - real talk, i only meant to post the first sentence and then a vague short paragraph maybe. Not saying s2 didn’t have it’s good things, its humor and whatnot, but it wasn’t enough to make up for everything else (and there’s a lot. but rn i don’t give a shit about any of it or him. i don’t even care about getting more klaus - THAT’S how bad it is!! y’all know i love that motherfucker, we identify the same - i got some of his tattoos, our fashion sense is just Like That. the only love i have for the umbrella academy lies with season one and the comics. Maybe my feelings on *gestures to this entire post* will change when we actually start getting stuff for s3 (and i fully intend to watch the third season, even though i couldn’t care less about the stupid sparrows - one bad season isn’t enough for me to totally give up on it) but right now - and for the last several months. not really my cup of coffee) i have no desire to make or consume content for it anymore. drunk!me might try some time, that bitch DOES things, but otherwise. i mean idk maybe i can but i don’t really want to. i cant write trauma i don’t feel attached to, karen, and i can’t write about characters i haven’t extensively analyzed. but it’s SO different from s1 my connection to the characters emotionally is gone. s1 gave me plenty of inspiration and thoughts. the fic i had started posting probably wont get worked on anytime soon (i’m a whump / hurt / comfort / angst lover and writer. i haven’t read a tua fic in months, i dont get involved in the tua discord (clowns, if u see this, i love u) and that’s like also for anxiety reasons but also bc i have nothing to say about this show. like so incredibly lmao i don’t tend to back off in a fandom, even during a hiatus, unless given a good reason to not care anymore. I tried really hard to love it - and did convince myself to for awhile, bc tua means so much to me and i didnt want to be disappointed about it - but the fact is: i am. The tension grows and that part of the fandom is on edge - that thing with the artist and replacing Cara from the official art happens and at this point, everyone’s waiting for either any kind of confirmation of her involvement in s3, or for the other shoe to drop. They won’t leave, and neither will the martyr-like image that goes with them). Some unrelated fuсkuрs happen here and there - she’s dragged into the drama with the High Republic writer for no real reason and TFM, a bunch of people who feed on outrage, blast every miniscule bit of it across the Internet and compare the situations and say, ‘why didn’t you say anything when she was being harassed?’ (The words ‘double standard’ will start sneaking in around this point.
So while the show is airing and in the few weeks after that, this is where we’re at: the majority of people with any real sources have already sussed out that there is tension there, Gina has been on a podcast or two and shown up on a youtuber’s account for three consecutive videos, and has been trending on and off for a multitude of reasons, both positive and negative. These are all lovely qualities, but amplified through her fanbase’s eyes, they elevate her to both a representative of their ‘side’ of the SW fandom and, simultaneously, one hell of a damsel in distress. She has no problem telling the people yelling at her that she’s glad they’re off her account because it’s like the trash is taking itself out and, in the same breath, talking about how a fan’s feelings are valid and so is expressing them. Gina is, and I say this with a lot of respect and a bit of awe, closer to the real life personification of Cool Girl than anyone I’ve ever seen because she’s a fighter, in the literal and metaphorical sense, who doesn’t back down in front of the same people those aforementioned guys hate, but she’s also kind and attentive and soft-spoken and gives out advice to bullied children. It’s not just that she’s a beautiful woman, although there’s also that, but that her whole demeanour plays to something they want to see. To be painfully honest, the fact that a whole lot of them are men (and skew towards being more conservative in the literal, not the political sense of the word) also plays a role here, IMO.
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